Stand Alone

Lately I find myself in a deep inner turmoil regarding who I really am, who I am supposed to be, who I am expected to be, who I should be, and who I want to be. At this point in time, it has become so spiritually exhausting to be a member of The Church of Jesus Christ AND a Republican at the same time. It is almost as if Satan himself had taught the world that anyone who fits into these two categories should be stoned to death on accounts of being racist, greedy, selfish, and just plain heartless. Yesterday I found myself rhetorically asking God why he allows very powerful men to fool and mislead so many people. Why do such men have to be in such a powerful position in a country that desperately needs a man who actually has values, who loves this country, and above all, loves God himself? I began to feel the desperation that I felt November 6th. It really is an ugly feeling to feel that your future and that of your children is being so destructively tampered with by a man who a world that resembles Sodom and Gomorrah has placed on the highest pedestal. I digress...there are many things changing around us. In our world, in our country, amidst the members of His church, and in our home. And all I want if for you girls, Kamila and Khloe, to know that it is extremely hard to stand up for truth and righteousness. I get it. I was once young. Can you believe that now as your mother approaching her thirties, it has become even harder to do just that? It is hard when you know you will offend people by speaking out against things that are wrong or for simply voicing an opinion that is not congruent and accepted by a demoralized yet very popular and powerful society? You will lose friends and perhaps the acceptance of people you love, but in the end, it is all about being true to who you are. Be true to the divine in you. Be loyal to the royal within you. It doesn't matter if something is popular. "Wrong is wrong even if everyone is doing it, and right is right even is no one is doing it". So, my beautiful daughters, remember to always “Stand up for what is right even if you are standing alone”...although, you are never alone. Your Father in Heaven is always with you. I want to share this with you. It was written by the woman behind the blog "Women For Truth"..it brought comfort to me that awful day last month and I feel that her words echo my exact feelings. 

 "As she fell asleep lying next to me tonight, Betty, my five-year-old, got tears in her eyes (mostly just exhaustion) and said she was sad Obama won. I laughed as she was mimicking her mother, who, at the start of the day, hugged her good morning and began crying telling her Romney lost and her mother was sad. In this moment, I realized I needed to write down my thoughts for my children on this post-Election Day, why I am so sad today and why I will keep fighting tomorrow.

I voted for Mitt, but it wasn't because he was Republican, I hate being labeled into a box. I wasn't even voting for Mitt per se- no doubt he would have been a great economic leader, which is what this country so desperately needed. I was voting for more than a man. I voted for the idea that reward comes with hard work, not handouts. That people are the solution, not the government. I voted with the notion that our President should be held accountable for his actions, and that on 9/11/12, a US Ambassador and three other Americans were killed in a terrorist attack, and that our current President blamed it on a video.  I voted because Obama apologized to terrorists and to the world for our First Amendment and the right to free speech. I voted because I belong to a religion that has seen much hatred, and cruel videos and musicals, and yet I believe it is a right for others to speak, so I peacefully ignore those cruel words and videos and musicals. I voted because God leads this nation and the Democratic Party removed his name from their political platform. I voted because I believe contraceptives are a choice and not a right; and even more that women should pay for their own and not expect others to do so. I voted for the unborn who are killed by partial birth abortion. I voted not to pay for abortions with my tax dollars. I voted for economic recovery and for that silly belief that if you can’t afford it- you shouldn’t get it. I voted for Capitalism and the American Entrepreneur. I voted against redistribution of wealth and the thought that the government can decide who has too much and who deserves more. I voted against a President that seeks to divide (class warfare, war on women, race divisions), and voted to Stand United with my fellow Americans, no matter their race, gender, or financial worth. I voted for the belief that this nation was founded on principles that need to be embraced, not “fundamentally” changed.

I voted for you, {Kamila and Khloe}. I voted so that you would be able to grow up in the America I have been privileged to know. I write this so that you know that my vote was not in vain. I realized today that I stood with 48% of American voters, united for a better tomorrow. I will continue to work and serve, and pray so that each year that 48% grows. I learned today that being humble to the Lord and working hard is difficult and tiring, but it’s the only way. I learned that I must make sure, as your mother, that you learn about America, the good and the bad. I learned that America is only as strong as her people. I learned that I am strong. I learned that women are much stronger than men (well that-I already knew)! I learned that even though the outcome is not what I had hoped, fought and prayed for, that a victory was won because of the liberties that allowed me to say I VOTED.